Thursday, July 9, 2009

My Worst.

Theres never been a time in my life that I felt more hopeless.

A man who chose to use his fists, rather than his words to communicate with me.

I felt stupid.

I felt unworthy.

I felt small.

All because I believed what he said.

It was my truth.

My dirty secret.

I endured.

Til finally one day, the large hand came across my face for the last time.

I left.

I met a man who loved me for who I was, not what I could do for him.

My strength slowly crept back.

Now I survive, hoping to help.

A lady is meant to be treated with respect, dignity, love..

If he can't do that.

You are better off alone.




(this weeks writing prompt from Mama Kat's Losin It, go visit her)

27 comments:

  1. I can't tell you how much I agree with that post. My life has been spent listening to someone with a negative opinion of me. I heard it so much that it became my truth. No one tells you that the bad stuff is easier to believe than the good because if we believe the good stuff then that would mean that there isn't anything wrong with us. That instead the person putting you down is the one with the issues. The real truth is that we are fine just the way we are. It only takes one person, the right person to show you that the other was wrong. It's the wounded that rise stronger in the end. My husband showed me that I was worth so much more than I'd thought. It'll only take one person to raise you back up from where the other had left you down. Chin up sweetheart. I've been there and it's a slow working process I'm still going through too.You show great promise. Just remember what the Bible says about faith hope and love.

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  2. That was one dramatic and powerful post. It was actually beautiful writing. I hope you are at peace.xx

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  3. It takes courage and strength to walk away and never look back. Don't ever let anyone bring you down to their level. Good for you girlie! Such a powerful post...with raw emotions and heart ♥ I've linked to you in my current post. Enjoy!

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  4. Yay for you! Brave post. This lesson of dignity and respect is foremost in my mind as I spend each day with my son. My husband and I worry about it, whether we are teaching him everything he needs to know. Hopefully what he sees and experiences in our family will be enough to ensure that he treats those in his future with the respect that everyone deserves.

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  5. BTW "Short term plans? To "sit with Sarah Palin on her front porch watching Russia, by August of 09". Oh that is sheer brilliance, I love it!

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  6. What a great post! I am so glad you're in a better place now. I've been there too.
    xoxo

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  7. I've been there too honey...left and never looked back....Bless your heart for finding someone who loves, accepts and appreciates you

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  8. Wow. I am such a coward I don't know WHERE my failings would leave me if I was in those shoes.
    Way to go you.
    What a well-written post.

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  9. Very true!! I'm glad you walked away to find better!

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  10. brave post. and it should/does include verbal abuse.

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  11. Most women don't walk away they just endure it. I'm glad you wised up and got out and found true love and respect!

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  12. So True ROcksee...and to heck with negativity. You're awesome! And I just adore you and your writing!

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  13. What a moving post... sorry you went through that and glad you made it out of it:)

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  14. love the post. You are STRONG!

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  15. WoW! When so many women stay, you were brave and strong enough to make that break.

    Sounds like you have a wonderful man in your life now!

    What a great post!

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  16. very brave sweetie!No one ever should feel like that.You deserve respect.

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  17. Hi, I'm visiting from Mama Kat's. I don't tolerate men that hit. Fortunately I have never experienced it first hand but I've had friends that have and I understand how hard it is to pick yourself back up after they've slapped you down so many times (physically and emotionally). Along with anyone who reads this post, you should be proud of yourself for having the strength to leave and tend to yourself.

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  18. That is such a touching post. Awesome for you! You are a strong woman!!!!! Great post.

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  19. Love it! Thanks for sharing a tough part of your life- that's the only way others know that there's a way out and that it's possible to move on to better. High 5's to you and the man who loves you well!

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  20. That post is very moving and hits really close to home.
    Stoppin by from SITS to say hi and leave some love.
    Come check out my Thumnbail Thursdays and play along ;)

    Dawn

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  21. Thank you for posting that!

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  22. I think it's beautiful that you share your truth. Your perseverance, strength, and willingness to help others with your story just goes to show that his blows could not crush your spirit. I am so proud of you for leaving!

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  23. Amazingly strong and beautiful post.

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  24. Sending you a hug and so glad you are with someone who truly loves you!

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  25. You are special! Glad you found the right man!

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